the understanding wife!

hello wives,

with every day that goes by, i try to understand more of what is and i find myself learning more about who i am…i am understanding that i will forever be learning about myself. i once thought that when you become an adult…that’s who you are, but i am finding out that we are constantly becoming. well, i guess i should say… if we keep our eyes open, we will see the changes in ourselves everyday.

to quote the songwriter india arie…”the only thing constant in the world…is change, so today i take life as it comes”. that is truly saying a lot! understanding that there is and always will be change and then accepting that change. sounds like a fairly simple concept, however, i am understanding that it’s not so simple. everyday that you wake up is different from the day before…and i really want you to hear me on this…everyday is different and change is good! some people don’t like change, they find change to be uncomfortable and inconvenient, an interruption to the life that they have worked so hard to create. it is my opinion that we must embrace change, not just because we know that it is coming, but because we get to understand ourselves a little bit more through change. the way in which we respond to it is crucial to the understanding of it all!

i am currently in a place that is completely foreign to me, however, the understanding of who i am and what my purpose is has never been more familiar. i understand that my purpose here is to simply spread love…through every action that i take, and this is more complex than it appears, because life happens, emotions arise, and ego seldom takes a break, and we as a culture have built so many walls all in the name of “doing me”, that it’s very common for a fellow walker or jogger to do everything in their power to avoid eye contact with you (as if eye contact may spark a real connection between us as people)…i mean really, who needs to connect with the possibility of it changing their agenda? some may consider this to be old-fashioned, but i can’t be the only one that considers this to be a huge disconnect between people. with that being said…i understand my mission and i also understand that i will learn something new everyday…if i choose to 🙂

*here’s what i know…if you keep your eyes open, you will see something new everyday…in the world and in yourself 😉

the grateful wife!

hello wives,

i am by definition a grateful wife, which means warmly or deeply appreciative of kindness or benefits received…but i have my moments. 😉 i try to remind myself everyday to be truly grateful…and yet sometimes it doesn’t work. it is in those times that i realize that i am disconnected from the source that is grateful and i must reconnect immediately.

today i was having one of those moments and then i opened an email from my mother that is traveling in france with some friends…i was expecting to read about her many discoveries and all about the great food, however, what i read was heart wrenching. i read a couple of sentences about her experience so far and then my eyes came upon the reason for her email…one of her dear friends had suffered a stroke and was hospitalized. i immediately began to pray and my heart went out to her family that was traveling to france to be with her during this unexpected reality.

i battle with the emotion of being grateful that my mom was typing this email, instead of one of the other mothers typing it to their daughters about my mom. i also struggle with sadness because her family is traveling to such a beautiful place for such a sad occasion, yet i know that if it were my mom, i would not be able to travel to be with her. life is so unexpected…

when we are little and dream about our future, we often leave out the small details of life as we journey toward that dream. i can say that i don’t recall putting feelings of abandonment, low self-esteem, identity crisis, emotional, spiritual, or physical abuse, being flooded out of my city, unemployment, and the struggle to conceive a baby on the list of experiences to have along the way…but i will say this, i’m grateful. and by that i mean, grateful that i survived to understand the triumph after tragedy experience. it is like no other experience…you somehow connect to that source that is inside of you and it instinctively will pull you directly into triumph.

i am presently experiencing life with the understanding that…life is what you create it to be…and i am grateful for it. i have opened up my heart to expect that life will happen…and while it is happening i expect to learn more about my part in this creation.

*here’s what i know…being grateful causes more experiences for you to be grateful 🙂